I’m just so grateful that I’m part of this. I’ve been looking for something like this for a really long time.
It was the 2nd November 2010. Cardboard Citizens came to the Hopetown hostel. They performed a show and the audience was allowed to intervene at the end, come up, and do a little improvisation. I said ‘stop’ and I was brought up on stage. I came to Cardboard Citizens purely for the confidence, I wanted to rediscover myself, and I felt when I intervened in the hostel something was given to me. Straight away. I thought I would be able to grow. My proudest moment? I think it was when I said ‘stop’. Because If I didn’t, I think things would have been a lot different for me. I think being employed on the Hostel Tour the following year I was given the opportunity to take myself to a different level, on a different part of my journey. On the same night I saw the hostel show, I gave up alcohol. So to be on the Hostel Tour this year will be massive, it will be fantastic that I can share my sobriety, and I’ll be clean.
I’m always being pushed, I’m rediscovering myself - even talking in front of people, I find it impossible at times, and I’ve done it for years. I’ve almost not had a voice. Mute more like. I’m journeying towards my confidence, to be in a group activity is a huge thing for me, and when I get pushed I get amazed straight away, like wow, I’m doing this, and I have fantastic people around me, directors and the support staff. It’s a great umbrella to be under.
I’m just so grateful that I’m part of this. I’ve been looking for something like this for a really long, long time, something that I can really bounce off of. The people allow me to do that ‘cos there’re so many characters out there. I’m quite a complex person anyway, and I grew up thinking that was something to be ashamed of. People used to say ‘You’re weird!’, but actually I quite love it. And I can be that weirdness in here.
I am excited. The rehearsals are very intense, I’ve got ideas, it’s just leaning over and putting them across. I still have barriers, but I know as time goes on Cardboard Citizens will allow for me to reduce them.